Nurturing, Duty,reciprocation, responsibility and whatnot

Nurturing....some do a wonderful job of it... they take time out for people they care for and I love them for that. But I am different.......I give 100% to whoever is in front of me and try and get accross a honesty of purpose, empathy and a oneness is the thoughts that we share..not necessarily thinking alike but thinking for the same purpose..I am there for them for the moment, for the hour, for the day or for every moment I spend with them, that too is nurturing. Of course, more is achieved by doing this in a planned manner.... both people make the time for sharing and and hence do not miss out in the humdrum of activity that surround us...For me life is the spontaniety...i do not want reflect in the past...I do not want to peek into the future......I am travellor without a destination....either in people or places.. and i have been lucky that most have accepted me... will I change ...god knows...

Is nurturing done with an anticpation of reciprocation..should that return of nurturing drive your need to nurture or is that a usual fallout of having nurtured goodly.. I know that as children parents do the nurturing not with the thought that it will be returned in good measure and these days sometimes it does not....for instance I do not return a hundredth of what I have received... and I often nurture the realtionship with people who posiblly do not feel like nurturing back...but what the heck I cannot stop myself... i love who i love, and do not some others...i am liked by people I dislike and it possibly goes the otherway around too...I think we should let our instincts work for us and not try and not try and control ourselves, our emotions and manage those of others...


The word duty is made to sound like a burden, that one needs to bear....it is thoroughly the other way, is duty something that someone decides for you or is it something that you feel that that you have to do because you want to do..except that it may not be fun while doing it or sometimes there are no rewards...thank yous...etc..except for a feeling inside you that you did your best...why should doing your best be so painful... it may difficult, tough but surely it gives you a purpose... the purpose is to achieve happinness, improve wellbeing or alleviating yours or someone elses sorrow, pain etc...

What is responsibility....it is what we through my actions, behaviour and language convey to ourselves and others that they can count on me/us or they cannot...while in the latter case it ceases to matter, when the "I" conveys that "I" can be counted upon by me or others and then what we do is we commit a breach of that promise... I guess we are being irrresponsible...

We are what we are i.e. our identity is a summation of our activities such as nurturing, our attitude to our duty and responsibility as seen by ourselves first and similarly by others... so every minute of our lives I am determining who that I is...
Is being responsible a cross that we carry? Should we fear it...No enjoy it...it is what make I me ....

But with all this, I mess up from time to time...sometimes the situation messes the I up...some times someone else messes me up... as a traveller, I laugh, cry, I correct, say a sorry, a thank you and pick myself up and travel from and to everwhere...

Some ruminations on what is important to me...Harin (Big J) thanks for picking this line today as you looked over my shoulder....
hey..putting things down on paper...(blog) does bring a lot of clarity...

thanks T, J, and Big J..for bringing this blog thingy myway...

myownpage..ha.ha...

I am Shankar, shanks, appa... (i am doing an intro for myself) don't know if that is how we get started -blogging...is an identity important or only my blog.....is my skill with words that will interest people or is it me...do I want people to be interested in me...have not figured this out...So will start this blog as that is the "in thing"...also when every one is opening up to the world with this... i should too...or Nandan and Harin will find me dated.....now to get back to the intro..used to be very happy go lucky...hope to get there again..soon very soon...I am blogging thanks to some inspiration from harini, whom most will know as janaki...a typical gemini I am, can change course every minute to everyones smile or consternation or whatever....i like myself that way..i smile better than I frown..i guess most of us do.....the laff is the best face I have got for sure... love Nandan..and harin...and just about everyone afterthat...need to get a little fitter...now a little about the blog identity which has " I'll go anywhere...."..I am happy treveller in all senses flitting flirting walking moving so I should be me...I was trying to fill in the form on this blog and that is all that came off my fingers....